How can I be???
It’s not at all possible
I look in the mirror
See nothing but horrible!
Reddened eyes
Bags that weigh me down
A factory for tears
Contribution to my frown
Smile!
Pictures I despise
They serve as a reminder
Highlighting imperfections
I hide from every camera
A bad memory
Things I let linger
The kids that pointed fingers
Laughed and called me
Everything but my name!
“Oh Shame” said mum
“You shameful stupid girl!”
“Your 12, and still wet the bed”
It's not my fault - I cry internally
I dare let those words escape from me
Nerves get the best of me
At the worst of times
My mind thinks hard
The worst possible scenario
Creates an erratic heart
A heart so heavy
A heart so sad
Wouldn’t buy it myself
Let alone give it away!
You see, it’s been trapped
For far too long
Vicious cycles
Dreary songs
And no-one knew
What I went through
Pretence is my middle name
Was very good at the game
One by one my insecurities ate me up
Mashed me into a pulp of nothingness
Lost touch of myself
No recognition of me
My lips – too big
My spots – too many
My hair – too short
My hips – non existent
My arms – too fat
My height – too tall
My weight – a flaw
Hatred grew everyday
Even the slightest piece of like shrunk away
Forgot how to pray
Where was God anyway
Why did he bring this curse upon me?
So concerned
I spoke out
To the one I trusted in the crowd
A friend I could confide
Broke down...
“Not much more to be done”
She sighed.
"These insecurities weigh you down
Cover you in a false coat
A coat of lies
You now call skin
A skin you accept and embrace
Its poison works its way from the surface
Till it gets within and saturates
Your heart and mind
With its toxic tales
And twisted truths
It blindfolds your eyes
Makes you forget you
The real you
Fearfully and wonderfully made you
Shaped in God’s own image you
Unique and filled with richness you
Worth more than can be paid you"
Our God - the I Am
Made you, chose you, for such a time as this
He gave you every bit of confidence you needed
Yet not crossing the line of arrogance!
Must you wait for every girl/guy to like your FB pic?
Should attention from every girl/guy be what you seek?
Security lies in Christ first and fore mostly!
So forget your insecurities...
And accept your am-securities!
Say, I Am
“I Am”
Said I am
“Said I am”
No more insecurities
“No more insecurities”
But Am-securities
“But Am-securities”
With Christ’s assurity
“With Christ’s assurity”
And the devil can’t steal this truth from me
“And the devil can’t steal this truth from me”
My insecurities are transformed into Am-securities!
